… that I can say now. I’m cleaning my psyche’s closet.
To Hiam, a batchmate from ICSB, – Pare, masarap kumain ng isaw. Gusto ko ng isaw paminsan minsan. Matibay ang sikmura ko at adventurous akong kumain. Ngayon, kung kinukondena mo ko sa pagkain ng isaw, paki ko sayo. Yuck ka din. Walang pakielamanan.
To Father Pablo, prefect namin nung high school – Father, malaki po ang respeto namin sa inyo. Pero ngayong malaki na kami at wala na sa eskuwelahan, ito din pala ang masasabi ko, the thoughts that I had even before I graduated: mali ang sobrang control. Hayaang mag-isip ang tao at wag mong sikilin kung pano siya lumago. At isa pa, mali itong scenariong ito sa number 5.
To Hazel, classmate ko nung elem – Hazel dear, I will forever remember your face and be sorry (not to mean I disfigured it somehow, hindi naman). I’m so sorry binato kita ng isang ream ng pad paper nung araw na yon. I just got so confused because Rina was teasing me about Miss March, who was then practicing the field dance in the corridor outside. Kaw kasi kulit mo e tanong ka ng tanong. So sorry ulit. Peace!
To Jazzy, batchmate ko ng elem at FEU MassCom student – You knew that I recognized you as the person who bullied me way back in elementary. So even though we have the same acquaintances in the university, we would never mix, because I have an intense dislike for you. To think that I almost didn’t finish elementary because I was contemplating on spilling your blood. Buti na lang I have restraint. Gayunpaman, hindi ako masaya on what you did towards the end of your life. Kung nasaan ka man, sana payapa ka. On my part, I have long since started to let go.
To Mrs. Whatshername na teacher ko sa English nung first year ako in high school – It was wrong for me to be the center of your ire. Now, I realize that you have long been solidified in your character as a teacher, and it was probably foolish of me to expect you to be a good one, or the ideal one I had in mind. I still do not like you and my memories of you, but these do not ruin my life. Yes, David Copperfield the book IS a novel, not an autobiography, English teacher.
To R. Colina, classmate nung elem – Nung sinabi mong “Ayy, bading!” with motions and mockery when I said I wanted to be a chef someday because I like to cook, I’d like you to know that you deserved a huge knuckle sandwich right then and there. Too bad I didn’t give you one.
To Edward Balagtas and Russian Sacdalan – Ikinahihiya ko kayo. Nakakahiya kayo. Hindi ko alam ang mga rason nyo pero ang pakiramdam na ito ang tanging iniwan nyo sa akin.
Some people would say that I am reserved, quiet and timid. However, there are also times that I would completely shake this perception completely, as if it never was the case.
